is caffene addictive? why shouldn't it be. love and hate and good and bad attitudes... not to mention cigarettes and sex and alcohol and lots of drugs, and family and lack of family all are... so why not caffene? i wonder if there isn't a better word than addiction? do we overuse the word? do we misuse the word? is it a word that is wildly known and used, an inside the box word, that we all can use no matter our intellectual capacity, or rather, not capacity, but what intellect our lazy selves have chosen to use? curious...
joanna arrives in 3 days. viva las vegas babeeeeee!!!! i think seth, jo, and myself are all excited for this. it's a great break in the monotony and sounds like fun to me. it's also a chance to show off the new found okayness inside of this relationship. hasn't always been represented by both parties as an okay and supportive one. it's certaintly taken it's toll... the rumor is that it all comes around again...
hopefully not all of it comes around again. i think mostly life is a bitch, and a good attitude goes along way. this close up look at all that i do not have, or could have better is overwhelming, and really everything is fine. if not, a little under developed. better usages of time. energy up.
the house is comming along sort of like a sick snail. very slowly.
i talked to mom today. uncle bill is ripping the shed off of grams house, and building some rooms back there, and new cupboards and etc.... they're really fixing it up for her (sounds like they're getting ready to sell it...). gram of course, is terrified by the change, but i think in the long run she will dig it. i hope so.
today is mom and jose's anniversery. i think it's 3 years, but i'm unsure. they're going out to eat. jesus 3 years! wow...
what is up with this love thing? i don't any longer understand it. sometimes it feels so lucky to have, and others it feels such a burden... it's the fade in fade out? i should watch what i say, if i'm only just having a fade out moment?
we are so unevolved, really. shouldn't we know this? but i wonder, if we did have these answers... what then?
joanna arrives in 3 days. viva las vegas babeeeeee!!!! i think seth, jo, and myself are all excited for this. it's a great break in the monotony and sounds like fun to me. it's also a chance to show off the new found okayness inside of this relationship. hasn't always been represented by both parties as an okay and supportive one. it's certaintly taken it's toll... the rumor is that it all comes around again...
hopefully not all of it comes around again. i think mostly life is a bitch, and a good attitude goes along way. this close up look at all that i do not have, or could have better is overwhelming, and really everything is fine. if not, a little under developed. better usages of time. energy up.
the house is comming along sort of like a sick snail. very slowly.
i talked to mom today. uncle bill is ripping the shed off of grams house, and building some rooms back there, and new cupboards and etc.... they're really fixing it up for her (sounds like they're getting ready to sell it...). gram of course, is terrified by the change, but i think in the long run she will dig it. i hope so.
today is mom and jose's anniversery. i think it's 3 years, but i'm unsure. they're going out to eat. jesus 3 years! wow...
what is up with this love thing? i don't any longer understand it. sometimes it feels so lucky to have, and others it feels such a burden... it's the fade in fade out? i should watch what i say, if i'm only just having a fade out moment?
we are so unevolved, really. shouldn't we know this? but i wonder, if we did have these answers... what then?
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