DAY 68: REFLECT.

i am absolutely and utterly shocked by the fact that i've lived in arizona for almost 6 years. the information just floors me...

as i am saving up money to move to 17 memory lane... somewhere in the outskirts of portland, maine on july 1... i am thinking back on this all. i know it's all - or most of it all... - is right here in my blog. wether i like it or not... there's so so so many serious changes that i've gone through.

my time in arizona has been both good and bad. it's hard to blog about this because i haven't allowed myself to think very much about this. it's all just been work and work and work and worry about u-hauls, or gas, or tires, or what-EVER.... but thinking back over the last 6 years. i guess i feel foolish, and then smart, and happy and also really sad.

there have been nights that have justified living under stars that are as bright and visible almost every nght of the year out here in the desert.

and then... there have been weeks where just a little rain to wash away all of this shit would be so much more than welcome...

i guess i'm not ready to document the way i feel yet. in the "are you out there" story of my life...

arizona has rendered me speechless when i think of leaving it. i'm so much more than ready to (if just for a while, or a whole lifetime... come what may..)


"it's gonna be alright." - k. clarkson 'save you'