DAY 66: UNDERSTANDING

i guess i own up to moments of depression throughout my life. moments of sensitivity and questioning that dangerously feels like enlightenment but which rarely ever is.

as i get older i find it almost a healthy challenge to get myself back on my right footing once i recognize these paterns or "moments" within myself.

lately, however... the super duper hypersensitive moments have been firstly, kinda damaging and secondly... way WAY out of control.

i don't really think i'm a crazy person and so when there's something wrong with me i kinda wanna find out right??

so i go researching online. what is up with me, and i stumble upon...

and then i google....

and then i google some more...

this hypersensitity, alienation, and depression... all COMMON SIDE EFFECTS of quitting smoking.


ain't that a bitch!

.....guess it's gonna last for a couple of weeks after the last bit of nicotine has drained out of the body... and it's been what... like 10 days now since i quit the patch? wow.

knowing this makes me feel better already.

dignity and patience people.

if you're out there and you're quitting too.... keep researching and keep with it. you can do it!!!