6 MONTHS
The patrick Swayze news is sad. Pancreatic cancer - 3 to 6 months to live.
god, we count so much on time. racing it to become something - somewhere better. things take time. most paperwork takes at least 2 to 3 months to even clear well enough to give anyone a go ahead on something they want to do.
what in the hell do you do with 6 months? give up. call where you are in life your finish line and then dope up on pain killers and kiss everyone you love a lot?
what do you do with 6 months?
6 months is september. that's only my start date for my degree. yes, i know i'm in school now. but the credits i'm earning now verses what all i will be doing and how different i'm suspecting everything will be when i'm schooling full time feels like a beginning.
what about not school. what about working out on my body. could i just look at myself now, and be like - well, this is what i look like in my prime. so be it. nothing to do now...
my cats? apple, sirius, and jakob. what would happen to them in 6 months.
my family. all the babies that have come into life on the east coast that i haven't even gotten to meet yet.
bills that i'm working off. 6 months would that be enough time to clear my name?
my current savings plan of 5 dollars per work day would only give me 600 dollars in 6 months.
increasing to 10 a day would only allow me 1200. that's nothing, that would do nothing.
perhaps to be greatful for my health right now, is my most important tool for survival.
things change always because they HAVE to change. and that's when they will. that's when it's easy to change. when you have to.
i guess i don't know. good luck to everyone in all that you're trying to do. we're all out here pushing for something. usually we don't even know what, just something.
well, good luck to all of us. hope we're safe.
god, we count so much on time. racing it to become something - somewhere better. things take time. most paperwork takes at least 2 to 3 months to even clear well enough to give anyone a go ahead on something they want to do.
what in the hell do you do with 6 months? give up. call where you are in life your finish line and then dope up on pain killers and kiss everyone you love a lot?
what do you do with 6 months?
6 months is september. that's only my start date for my degree. yes, i know i'm in school now. but the credits i'm earning now verses what all i will be doing and how different i'm suspecting everything will be when i'm schooling full time feels like a beginning.
what about not school. what about working out on my body. could i just look at myself now, and be like - well, this is what i look like in my prime. so be it. nothing to do now...
my cats? apple, sirius, and jakob. what would happen to them in 6 months.
my family. all the babies that have come into life on the east coast that i haven't even gotten to meet yet.
bills that i'm working off. 6 months would that be enough time to clear my name?
my current savings plan of 5 dollars per work day would only give me 600 dollars in 6 months.
increasing to 10 a day would only allow me 1200. that's nothing, that would do nothing.
perhaps to be greatful for my health right now, is my most important tool for survival.
things change always because they HAVE to change. and that's when they will. that's when it's easy to change. when you have to.
i guess i don't know. good luck to everyone in all that you're trying to do. we're all out here pushing for something. usually we don't even know what, just something.
well, good luck to all of us. hope we're safe.
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