HOMEWORK/SELFWORK

192/210/165 ...okay, first things first. 192 pounds. wow. um, when i started this diet i knew i was going to go into it pretty seriously but, i mean, i didn't really think anything great would happen. 192 is bordering on great in my book. i haven't caved ONCE on the diet, and the rewards are awesome! i really don't know if 165 is my true goal. somewhere in the 170's would be great with me, but hell... let's go for the goal. i'm not changing it for now.

been doing homework all day. it's 1:44 in the morning and i'm really not done, but it's time to take a bit of a break. been thinking about karma and rewards for hard work.

making your life work takes a lot of time patience and... well, money, but i mean honestly i had nothing else really to do and things were NOT working.

i think about "friends" diving into my checking account. i think about nights spent. no not even spent. just wasted.

i remember being called boring when i decided enough was enough.

i remember less and less people being around when i decided enough was enough.

i'm well aware that the people who will be around are STILL around, and i don't really think any of them think i'm boring at all. infact i'm pretty sure they know i'm working my ass off.

i'm tired bitches. but i wont stop.