APPLE & JAKOB GO TO THE DOCTOR!

well... look at this! it's a beautiful warm (i'd even go as far as to say it's kinda hot out today..) friday, and my flu has been miraculously healed! hallelujah!

it's a good thing, too, because yesterday @ work i was popping 2 dayquill per every 2 hours. any more and i would've become a meth addict. lol yikes.

worthy news: well... tomorrow is the big day for apple and jakob. spayed and neutered. we're doing 'em both tomorrow. the lady called and confirmed and i have to drop them off at 730am and pick up is 3 in the afternoon.

it's kinda crazy if i think about it from their perspective. how frightening. the first time either of them has really ever left my apartment (save for apple's great escape where she got preggerz and gave me the incredibly hairy and cute gift of jakob). the vet is super sweet, and i'm sure all will be fine.

well that's about it for now.

DAYQUILL

197/210/160 - yay! i've started to move again. i'm doped up on dayquill and pushing forward my babies... that's about it for now, work sent me home early yesterday, i'm considering calling in for today, but i know i can't. i must continue building my fortune LOL billz

WHAT GOES UP...

curses!

199/210/160 - i seem to have plateaued. patience though, right? anyway - that's the good news.

who loses a great amount of weight without any side effects? well, apparently not me. because of the low carb diet, or possibly it was just my time... i've defenitly got a sore throat, an ugly cough and the hots and colds. not to mention i'm weak as an old lady and the chills/sweats feel like what i imagine severe menopause must feel like.

yes well... the show must go on. i've got ANOTHER math test this morning and work to go to tonight. i wonder if there's any low-carb influenza meds? holla if you know?

do i hault me diet and dope up on meds?

do i wait? maybe this will go away. i never get sick, it's not my thing. i don't like it. it wastes my time. blah blah.

ION: i decided to do my 2nd essay, the comparative one on mp3 players vs. ipod. is ipod better, or just a fad, a name?

well, we all know the answer... but sick as a puppy or not, this weekend i'm on a mission to buy an mp3 player and put it up to the challenge of an ipod.

at least to my ipod nano first generation.

oooh, and madonna's new album is called "hard candy," it's official. this album is supposed to be out of the park, i'm kind excited. feels good to be excited again for a madonna album. that's how life should be, IMO.

guess that's all for now. wish me luck on my test. i have 4 tests by next Wednesday. god it all feels like battleship, right now. and they can totally see my board.

bitches.

SECRET IDENTITY

i got another fracking A in my math class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my rough draft of my english paper was good enough that all i have to do is put it in MLA formatting and hand it back in and i'm done!


my babies... i'll be straight with you. working full time and going to school part time (which is what i'm doing) is HARD. i'm not going to lie. all you want to do is just stay in bed a couple more minutes.... all you want to do is stay up just a little bit later...

all you want to do is - nothing. enjoy the sun. it's arizona. it's beautiful out right now. all you wanna do is clean your bathroom - it needs it. all you want to do is what you are used to doing... but you can't... you made a choice to make everything different, and to work HARD to get someplace.

anywhere but here.

and "here," well, that changed too. now "anywhere but here" means there, where i was. aimlessly looking and not finding. unsatisfied and thinking at 30, that life was maybe too long...

and now... it's not long enough. not enough hours. not enough days in a week. so much, too much to do.

and i like it.

it feels good.

i'm superman, bitches.

i just realised that.

11 LBS IN A WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

199/210/160 just wow.

just being under 200 pounds feels like an achievement. it's certaintly not safely enough under 200 that i'm cool with it. one good chug of h20 and i'm up over 200 again. the real twirls and flairs will happen when i'm at least 190. i have quit drinking, i have upped the exersizes (i dance in my apartment - like wild crazy dance, a lot latley ..haha...) ANDDDDDD i get to eat yummy chicken salad!

ok... i'm off to class. i have a math test today (gag).

happy monday.

BLOGGING VS. DIARYING..

For my writing class i have to do an evaluation paper. Compare two products or places. two things. judge the crap out of them and decide who the winner is. my first idea was ipod vs just a normal mp3 player...

but then i thought about my blog.

i gave up my diary over a year ago, and i blog exclusively now.

so, which is better?

diarying. journaling in a little book... or blogging?


what do you think?

PLAY DATE

sunday... just had coffee out in the courtyard with seth. he brought flufferz (poof) and jackie paper over for a playdate with jakob, sirius, and apple. it was great to see them. so crazy that i lived with all 5 of them for so long... and liked it!

they're getting so big.

now, i'm off to the store to get some groceries. i think chicken salad sounds good for tonight! also have to work on my paper tonight. be well everyone.

DANCIN' THROUGH LIFE....

208/210/160


2 LBS! HOOT! day 2 of body reclamation... i actually feel better already, i don't even think that's jumping the gun. i think what it is is that i know i'm not gaining any MORE weight. that i've put my big ole fat foot down and said, "well, that's about enough jamie."

drink water, and make sure we spend ALL of our time either a) working or b) doing homework. mix in the cats, and housecleaning and actually there IS no time to eat whatsoever. so, it's all perfect. yay!

listening to wicked! again. never gets old.

210/210/160

ok....

i am 210 lbs. the most i've ever weighed. today is the first day of my body reclaim. updates to follow.

ugh, i'm a fatty.

BYE MOM

I put mom on the plane this morning about 6am *gag* and that concluded her annual vacation out to arizona. I admit i started crying in the airport, but thanks to the many bad drivers in the tucson area, my attention was focused no longer on my mother by the time i got to the highway.

tried to go back to sleep, but couldn't. i think i must've fallen asleep for a little while because i remember having a weird dream about paparazzi and pizza hut... don't ask.

it was great to have mom here with me again! the house is empty and quiet it seems, though sirius, apple, and jakob are doing their part to help me out there...

maybe i need a roommate? maybe i've lived alone long enough (to be considered...)

anyway, it's off to work tonight regardless of how tired i am (coffee is not helping - why?!). gotz to get the billz paid.

all love.

mom - i love you!