THE STARS DON'T EVEN MATTER

feeling of impending doom for like 3 days... i dunno what it's about. all the stuff i have to do this year? fly back home, clear out the house, and bury my mother being one of the top things on my mind that i don't want to do.

i only allow myself to think about all of that a little bit at a time. it's too much. i will stop for a second and say to mom... it's so much less fun and important without you. i miss you!

i got the promotion at work (that i didn't want). so, i guess i'm ok. about it 4 now

"if you're not really here then the stars don't even matter." - s. sparrow