giving thanks... once & for all.
a day before thanksgiving, and there is much to be greatfull for. this mornings coffee being one of them... this day, however insignificant it may seem, is really not.
it's not only the day before thanksgiving, or wednesday, or the 23rd... it's not only someone out there's birthday, or wedding date, anniversery, or *gasp* death...
today, i get the keys to my new apartment. my own apartment. my own apartment since village of palma ceia in tampa, years ago... before little man was born... it's a one bedroom... has a balcony off of the living room, and another off the bedroom... it's a 6 month lease, with the last month free... giving me about 5 months to really just take it easy, and find out what will happen next in my life.
school starts in january, i'll be taking 2 classes, finally, towards my teaching degree. i know it's a bit shocking that i ended up staying in tucson after the breakup.
it's not exactly how i had planned it, but the bennifits of actually going to school again, and affordable housing... of this merciful calm and okayness that i'm going through right now... turned out to be much more than well worth it to me.
new york will have to wait a little longer. she understands.
moving out of this "situation" that has gone on for far too long subtly and quietly, and most of all peacefully and calmly, is the most assuring way to make sure of it's longevity, and honesty. i am, yes, for all of those of you who have wondered when, finally moving on with my life.
so... my dear readers. sometimes you simply find a way to be satisfied. it's not always what you thought, and the fanfare surrounding it all sometimes is only the happy butterflies in your stomache. but you know what? it can be the best feeling you've ever had, when you look yourself in the mirror and you can know this time, the decision is right!
happy holidays.
"i owe my life to the people that i love." - ani difranco
it's not only the day before thanksgiving, or wednesday, or the 23rd... it's not only someone out there's birthday, or wedding date, anniversery, or *gasp* death...
today, i get the keys to my new apartment. my own apartment. my own apartment since village of palma ceia in tampa, years ago... before little man was born... it's a one bedroom... has a balcony off of the living room, and another off the bedroom... it's a 6 month lease, with the last month free... giving me about 5 months to really just take it easy, and find out what will happen next in my life.
school starts in january, i'll be taking 2 classes, finally, towards my teaching degree. i know it's a bit shocking that i ended up staying in tucson after the breakup.
it's not exactly how i had planned it, but the bennifits of actually going to school again, and affordable housing... of this merciful calm and okayness that i'm going through right now... turned out to be much more than well worth it to me.
new york will have to wait a little longer. she understands.
moving out of this "situation" that has gone on for far too long subtly and quietly, and most of all peacefully and calmly, is the most assuring way to make sure of it's longevity, and honesty. i am, yes, for all of those of you who have wondered when, finally moving on with my life.
so... my dear readers. sometimes you simply find a way to be satisfied. it's not always what you thought, and the fanfare surrounding it all sometimes is only the happy butterflies in your stomache. but you know what? it can be the best feeling you've ever had, when you look yourself in the mirror and you can know this time, the decision is right!
happy holidays.
"i owe my life to the people that i love." - ani difranco
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