contemplation.... and the city.

i now have one week of the west village under my belt. and 2 weeks in new york... just shy of that....

so much is going through my head. no job yet. still on fumes. on one hand it makes me feel like noone wants me - like i'm not good enough - but then there's that sick sinking feeling of reality... that's like, "kid get off your ass and try a little harder..."

I still HEART new york. screw it =)

mom's comming to see me tomorrow. be very very very very good to see her.