what to report, if anything? time seems to be moving... but not really getting anywhere. i know it's christmas time, and other than a noticible drop in temperature here in the desert, it doesn't look or feel a bit like christmas. thanksgiving was a fine day. i picked up a shift at the restuarant and worked 6am - 10am. couple extra bucks. then there was quite the traditional feast which the 2 of us enjoyed much... and are still enjoying... it's like the neverending left overs... ups is a ridiculous job... and it makes me want to go back to waitering. could i be a professional waiter? ...am i just not transitioning well? juggling the 2 jobs seems fine, but i miss all the free time waiting tables in the morning for 6 hours afforded me. new york is still very much in my future plans, and it's hard to think about, and increasingly harder and harder to talk about. again, i wonder about bilocation and double lives... if one could split, and fullfill 2 lives... would they? it's difficult when things are well, and much easier when they are not... for all of the pain and exaustion... terror and frustraition... loneliness and confusion... fear and loss of ambition... you end up with love. what a pisser. what can ya do... *shrug*