i have an inner-peace latley. it feels like a happiness. i'm not sure what it is. i'm trying not to figure it out... so many times the unknown is so much more beautiful than the known....

i do truly have good friends. my life is played solitare here in arizona. save for the phone or the internet. the peace i have found is higher than the ground i have been on that was loud and moving. i cannot express much better how i feel, other than this has been good for me.

...a disapline i never would've achieved, but always wanted. an independence that i require but never am lavish/selfish enough to go ahead and get for myself.

and so i love the desert. but not for it. i love it for me. whatever i just said...

"my heart is drenched in wine... you'll be on my mind forever..."