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that's my website now ya'll. there's a link to the blog, and though it is not ready, i am proud to say that it has been begun. mike, whatcha think?

ahhhh! it is halloween! i just put some candy out on the front porch for the kiddies... tonight, we're going to go out to a bar called "seven black cats." could be cool. never been.

teletech is a lot of fun. working there full time, and at the restaurant only on sundays, for extra cash. i am planning on moving to THE CITY in the new year. and everytime i allow myself to get consumed in the thought, i lose all motor functons and cannot think straight, so i guess that means i'm excited for it.

for now though, all is well. and a very happy happy halloween to everybody!

rain pours in the desert today, as i write. i am consumed by thoughts of individuality, and uniqueness... who are we is who we are. and not who we are not. i wonder about my own why's and how's... where i am, and where i want to be. i think deeply upon relativity and reality being what one believe is real, or what is actually real. i'm not sure who decides.

i am not sure who wins. i am not sure why i am caught in this spiral of thought. well, actually, i am sure as to why. i am contemplating one of the biggest things i've ever done in my life... i am in a new york state of mind. ...and the rain falls on the desert.

so... as it turns out, i am not a hardened criminal hiding out in the northern desert regions of the sonoran desert of the south western uninted states... i am but a normal boy.... (uh huh..) i've passed my background check and i am now officially an employee of teletech, tracking packages for ups.

i can die now. this has been such an exausting mind-frig, that i've little to no excitement about this job any longer... i begin on thursday. it's been a nice couple of weeks off, tho i suppose. i COULD be on vacation this whole time... but my new job are a bunch of bitches that i envision hanging out in a boring office room, going, "No! you call him this time, i called him last time.. and then bursting out into fits of laughter over the little joke they are playing..." ehh, they either got busted, or felt bad for me. so, i'm in. joke's over. or has it just begun?

is it monday? again... working on the living room quite a bit latley. stripping down the trim to the bare wood. the room is going to look pretty great. i'm excited to get to the fireplace. this house was a goal we set out together on and it needs to be done, before any crazyness can even be thought about... i found an apt. in manhattan (1 bedroom for 850.. but i will swollow my tongue... coz i would just only, swallow my tounge...) this weekend was rather uneventfull, which is fine.. last weekend was pretty exciting. sirius definetly has something to say, and is trying to have a very one sided conversation with me. i have to go find out what the heck he wants...

california dreamin'.... spent the weekend in san diego. like i said, however, it wasn't exactly how i said... we took off at about 6pm on friday evening. we got to the dunes, only to realise that it was for people with 4wheelers. ATV's, ect... we were more than welcome to stay, everyone seemed laid back enough (infact, the ranger was sprawled out over the top of his own four wheeler smoking a cigarette when we got there...), if we wanted to put up with the constant, no noise ordinance 4wheelers buzzing thru the whole night. that almost seemed cool enough... the dunes, in themselves, offer an exordinary experience. extremely large barren sand piles that blow in from over the tops of the mountain ranges. little to no plant life (or if it is there, it's burried far beneath the sand piles, that could only be described as either a) the world largest sand box... the best way to think about it, with all of the boys playing on their dune buggies =) or b) it's a lot like a snow storm in new england. untouched white morning snow, burrying everything, and creating an inviting curiosity to whatall is lying beneath, but they didn't have nightly prices. you had to pay something along the lines of 30$ for a week stay. that's BLM land for you. (honestly, not a bad price at all, were you a 4wheeling dune lover...) we decided 30 there, or 40 in El Centro at a hotel. the hotel won, and off to El Centro we went for the night...

saturday morning, refreshed, we took off for San Diego... the drive from el centro to san diego... hell, the drive from Yuma, Arizona to San Diego is spectacular. and that it is california only adds to it all.

we arrived at the west coast beaches quite early. not as early as we could've. we stopped over at the Golden Acorn Casino high in the mountains between El Centro and SD. alas, we won little... but if you can do it, do it.. right? we were on vacation, after all...

the beaches, plentiful and beautiful, were inviting enough... but to sit on the shore and watch hords of surfers out on the waves trying their bests to dance with the ocean... fantastic.

we planned to stay at Carlsbad State Beach, just north of SD. sadly, the camping park was full. we stayed at Carlsbad for a while though. Hanging out on the beach. We brought a camp cooker (totally okay to use on the beaches there...) and brewed up a pot of coffee. we explored the beaches and looked for shells. took off our shirts and read books. a very good day.

saturday night. we decided to let our hair down and go out. one other time in SD we had went to a bar called Burbon Street in the University Heights area. just a laid back bar with a patio for smoking... and it was nice to have a drink there, to relax. we were looking for a little bit more. we knew san diego had it. we hadn't come all this way to see the same lame little bars that we had back home in tucson.

we found this place called flicks. it was a bar, not a club (tho san diego does host them)... and it fit in with our "we're on vacation, let's be a little bit wild mood"... and lo and behold... we got more than we'd asked for when the dj annouced that tonight was there amature wet underwear contest.

folks, if you've never been to a wet underwear contest (i hadn't before saturday..) make sure you bring lots and lots of humor with you. and really, i don't know what else to say about it other than that.

i got bloody tied. drunk off my little happy booty. and so that was saturday.

sunday morning we woke up. grabbed some breakfast sandwhiches and headed to the beaches again. this time on coranado. the ---inner city beach, i guess---- it's on coranado island, where the military base is.

as we were sitting down, again the beaches came alive with surfers who this time had large kite like things leading them along the edges of the waves... at this point it became clear to me. this is how i wanted all of my mornings. i am a california boy. inside of me, and i just gotta find him, and let him loose!

we drove around a bit after our beach breakfast picnic. explored the gaslamp dist. in downtown. got coffee walked to the ship docks. and then it was time to go back to the desert.

since back, i cannot think of much else. i'm holding my breath and my pure exitement. were this a couple of years ago, i would have stayed. slept on the beaches until i'd made my way.

but now is a different time. ...or is it?

what a cool weekend comming up. i kinda have to breeze through this blog, as i've still a lot to do before departing...

i am off on the great south west american camp this weekend!!! seth and i will leave at 530 tonight... and setup camp this evening @ the Imperial Dunes in California. Then we're off on Saturday morning to San Diego where we will spend our time at Silver Strand State Beach. So excited for this trip. SSSB overlooks the Pacific Ocean, a cliff with the campgrounds on top. Very very cool.

I've got so much to do, before we leave for So Cal... and hopefully a trip up to Maine next week, too! WOO HOO! I love you all. My best. J.


OH!!! WWW.BLUCHEST.COM IS MY NEW WEBSITE. it's basically just a copy of this site right now, but all of my future updates will be on that site. you guys can reach me at jme@bluchest.com email.

be well. see.

just got home from the margret cho show!!!!!!!!!!!!! the state of emergency tour. man - she is one funny chick. she was super-political, which i understand; it being so close to election time. did you know dick cheeny has a lesbian daughter (margret called her a RIPE DYKE =) )... that he wouldn't let stand on stage with him and the rest of the fam at the republican national convention. honestly... is that what one nation under god does? is this a man we trust? is this a man believing in family values? or face value? popularity. PEOPLE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!! i'm feeling very very political tonight. the show was a riot. had a good time.

here i am, just like i said i would be.

laptop came today. it's pretty cool. my first new instrument ever, i think... i mean this big. instruction book and everything. i'm a bit intimidated by it, but i'll make it dance. xp trips me out too, but it's alright. i have come into the DVD generation, FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!! woo hoo

today has been cool i guess. the computer came. mike and i are going to be working on bluchest.com thanks mike. no, really, thank you! it's going to be a lot of fun.

www.teletech.com is the website to my new job. ...i need to go empty my cat's litter box. i'm so exasperated by all of the changes and new things latley. i guess i'll help out the gato. all this energy has got to go some place!

morning time in arizona. happy tuesday everyone. last night was pretty mellow. seth got home at 9. we watched a little tv. i dined apon oods and watched the surreal life. today, just working on the house a lot i guess. i've watered the yard and my new laptop should be arriving shortly. i cannot wait to post from it each night out under the arizona stars. my d-6 from florida came in, also. my license is as good as MINE! nervous about teletech... all is well. salud!

i have an inner-peace latley. it feels like a happiness. i'm not sure what it is. i'm trying not to figure it out... so many times the unknown is so much more beautiful than the known....

i do truly have good friends. my life is played solitare here in arizona. save for the phone or the internet. the peace i have found is higher than the ground i have been on that was loud and moving. i cannot express much better how i feel, other than this has been good for me.

...a disapline i never would've achieved, but always wanted. an independence that i require but never am lavish/selfish enough to go ahead and get for myself.

and so i love the desert. but not for it. i love it for me. whatever i just said...

"my heart is drenched in wine... you'll be on my mind forever..."