GOODBYE 2011

just 2 days to the new year. 2012. it's almost 8am, the weather is overcast and a bit warmer actually. i have to work at 930. guess i am looking forward to the new year. i always do. this SHOULD be the year i graduate. and the year i lay my mother to rest.

all years are full of changes, but none so controversial or fascinating as 2012 since the y2k scare of 2000.

will the world end?

i don't believe it, of course, for a second... but...

"another shot before we kiss the other side. tonight, yeah baby"

WE DO WHAT WE GOTTA DO

well... made it through the holidays, i guess. lots of red wine and work and sleep and red wine and work...

texts and calls from my people who are scattered all over this country...

got a kindle fire! it's very cool, so there was that...

so today it's drinking coffee and back to work at 9am. next 2 days off though. will be nice to just kick it with the animals and relax...

SUNDAY MORNING. SECOND DAY OF TRAINING...

7:30am again...2nd official day of training - will be glad when this is over... sacramento bee says the temp is currently 32 but it'll get up to 52 today. got a pretty decent 7 hours of sleep last night. greatfull for that this morning for sure. not a lot to say right now... excited to take the train into san francisco soon. that's my next goal. though i'm not exactly sure what to do once i get there... coffee by the ocean, i suppose. that sounds like me. anyway, happy sunday.

FIRST DAY OF TRAINING...

not counting my orientation on monday, today is my first day of work in the state of california. seems worthy enough to document in the story of my life. 7:35am and i've got coffee and about 2.5 hours of sleep under my belt, i think? it's 35.6 degrees out there, but morning here always gives way to a beautiful afternoon averaging around 60.

with, also, one of the worst years of my life under my belt i somehow still find myself capable of being great full for many things, the least of them for certain not being little alijah jackson healing from his eye fiasco and sleeping in today, little lucky thing...

my cigarette quit attempt was a big fat FAIL! but that's okay... i'm going light on myself these days. i will not give up until i've overcome it. i have, however, decided that i am unallowed to smoke while at work so, maybe the rest of my time will follow...

anyway, that's about it for now...

today signifies a new day in my life. i will start this one last time way down at the bottom and i'll work my way towards something bigger and better, and i will be okay.

SMOKING

oh yeah, keeping with the day 1 vibe... today at 3:05 i put on my first nicopatch and i'm quitting smoking. wish luck. will update the days!

ANOTHER DAY 1

i start work in like 2.5 hours... having coffee right now. watched bradly cooper in limitless last night. pretty cool movie. damn, if i could be brillz it would make life so much easier (and harder).

today i have orientation, and some studying to do. and perhaps try and fix my sticky return key on my keyboard...

happy monday all. one day one at a time...

I GOT A JOB!!!!!

well, i nailed the interview. i start on monday! my first job in california!

ONE DAY, ONE HOUR, ONE MINUTE AT A TIME...

well, i got 100 on my intro to anatomy test. that was a sign of good to come perhaps? alijah's redness around his eyes is back with a vengence and he's wearing the cone again. i guess i'll shoot an email to one of my friends to ask what i can do about it, clearly the vet had no idea.

interview this afternoon at 430. i soooo need this job but i've gotten my hopes up before and i've also been cocky like "obviously they'll hire me" and none of it worked... so i'm entering it humbled from that experience. just hoping for a good thing to happen...

christmas season is upon us. no denying that. i'll figure it out and get through it. next year could be better maybe. one step and day and hour and minute at a time...