PAINTING AFTER MIDNIGHT

so.. my new apartment comes complete with an outside area... it's billed as a "courtyard... but try to imagine a one car garage, maybe... with about 3/4 the roof taken off, and a wall built onto where the garage door would've been. and there you have my courtyard.

it's actually a really really cool space!

so... as always with the entirety of my life thus far, i can not leave well enough alone, and i've decided to paint it. it was an off white color that looked like it had just been thrown up there. it had scuffs all over it, and it was chipping... just looked bad. so, jon and i went looking for paints and i decided over a night of futurama watching (outside in the courtyard... mindyou) that "mexican chili" was the color i was going to go with... it's kinda a darker terracotta, maybe? reddish orange... it looks cool, and i have a bunch of plants out there and the green from the plants looks good with the color.

i just put the primer up on the west wall, and now i'm taking a break. about to paint a bit of the mexican chilli now... who else does this at 1:47am?

a good diversion from work right now. i'm training on the cooks line right now. it's pretty gross. i'm not saying the restaurant is unsanitary. it's not like that, but when you get outta work you are covered in a film of grease... yuck!!! it's also one of the more physically demanding things i've ever done. probs to cooks out there in the restaurant business. when i was just a server, i honestly had no idea whatall you guys were going through....

one more day till jon gets back. YAY! and 2 more days till San Diego babeee!!! and 4 more days till TIFFANY!!!!!!!! good stuff!

SUERTE

reading back over some of these entries of mine. i'm toying with the idea of writing in here a bit more regularly again.

i actually do things now. should document them.

like how i'm actually forming a friendship with seth (or embracing one that was hidden by too much other shit for too long to actually enjoy), and how i'm nervous about the spots on his lungs and how i hope he's okay.

or how i went out to cushing street (hot restuarant in tucson) yesterday and then out to the club with a bunch of people that i enjoy laughing my ass off at. or how about jon... i think the last i spoke of him was when we'd bumped into one another at club congress... he decided he'd kiss me... and then we thought we should go on a date maybe? well...

meet jon. the pic is a couple months old. i actually think mom took this picture last time she was here in tucson. that's my old apartment. i'll have to get some new pics going on. jon's hair looks a bit farah faucette about it.

he's cool. actually, he's very cool.

speaking of cool. my new apartment. it's got skylights and a courtyard and sliding doors and cute counter tops... i do need a camera. anyway... this is all for now. just thought i should make a post that ties the current to the past... and this one does the trick.

INSOMNIATIC HYPER EMO BOY

i cannot sleep tonight. my mind is racing everywhere. things are fine. money is frightning, as my promotion has not yet kicked in. soon though, and it'll all be over. smooth sailing financially... that's nice to know.

so... what's the big deal? no idea. maybe it's that jon is in maryland right now. perhaps having him there with me helps me sleep a bit better?

that sounds rather absurd doesn't it? fuck it. i have made a bit of an oath to myself, that perhaps i could question every single breath i take in my life a bit less, and enjoy ever breath i take a bit more...

so ahh...

tucson and the rest of the southwest is in a ridiculous heat wave. electrical outtages are happening all over the place... money can't buy you cool when everyone else has their a/c's booming...

myspace based out of LA is down, due to the electrical outtages.... perhaps is why i have trecked back to my old blog for tonite... maybe trying to exhaust myself in thought?

everyone look west and blow... let's cool calli down. i can't handle this.

actually heading to san diego on friday. a bunch of us are going for pride (to be honest... i could give a damn about pride... i'm going for tiffany who is performing!!! YAY!!!!!! and Omg... so is deborah gibson - is that not crazy!!!) it's going to be a helluva time. and my only bit of summer vacation since management training has swallowed up the entire rest of it.

i've yet to register for school. horrifying. how do i juggle school and 50 hours a week sallary at work?

damnit... i'm up for another hour now.

fabulous.

...watching jon's cats. that makes 3 cats chillin about in my apartment... all around me. everywhere i turn... cat.

rather creepy.

sirius is happy about it. he and teddymonster are having a great time. atom... he's more of a silent observer.

he insists, however, on doing his observing from the center of my kitchen table.

this does not amuse me. it does him, though... so hey - it cannot be all that bad.

i'm dull with writing.

i am happy.

i am ok.

i'm kinda cool and not a bad lookin chap.

a bit strange.

probably smell like cat poop.

i bet i have really dark bags under my eyes.

.......i am never sleeping again! ARUGG....