so... blogger is getting all of this news hype... eeek. i wonder what it's like when you find out, yes, they are out there and they are reading. lots of them are reading.

scary. would you change what you're writing about? would seth get creeped out and become a reader too, freaking about how i said his name too many times in a situation that could paint him as negative?

would i interject buffers? we're in a relationship; it's up and down... seth is great.


seth's mom is going to be here in a few days. eeek! i'm kinda freaking out. it'd odd that poof, and she's transported right into my home. our home, i guess...

stardate: 03.29.04: mother has landed. cover your gay spots. make it easier. a spoonfull of sugar helps... well, it helps something... go down. certaintly not me. seth initially said no sex when she's here. last night was a bit of a different story.

i don't know... it's his mom. yeah i don't wanna be caught by her. creepy!!!

this is an individual who said "no i do not want to meet him" about me, about a year rewind ago... being an adult sucks.

in other news... i'm so close to having my lappy restored that i can smell it!!! i miss my motor so badly. i'll blog everywhere then. or something.... probably i wont. i hear you can put pictures on here???

that's my bit of tml. this guy is cool (AND HOT). hot is sooo little of the story though... it's actually none of it... except that it is i suppose. we don't get to be introduced to people who would piss us off thouroughly unless we've something they want. that's not always true, but it makes it easier.

i have to get ready for work, and have another coffee...

i think i'd live my whole entire life in my tighty whitys! wooo hooooooooooooo! (I think i feel like a superhero)

"we're in an awful mess... and i don't mean maybe."

so - rents paid. i did it all by meself. go me... so, i'm making money. check. what the hell is so wrong? what the hell is soo up? what the hell is sooo twisted? i feel demented, but i think that i am not. things have been fine.

the car is fun. the city is great. arizona is lovely.

i am going through it. nothing really new there. 2:27am local time. i have these fantastic new marlboros. they're the same price as other marlboro's but SMALLER!!!!!!! with a slightly different colored box.. INGENIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! those bastard smoking companies. i'm such a sucker. but seriously, they're super cute.

i'm tying to find my student loans. i'm trying to figure if i should stay another year and arizona, and just get my shit together? i'm thinking how i'm going to over come the fact that i'm a jealous freak in my realtionship. i'm trying to figure out why none of my friends have ever told me this. all just sort of agreeing that the bastard is probably cheating on me.

i've decided he's not.

we went up mt. lemon in the new car, that i believe seth has named nevermore... aruggg. it was beautiful up there... we went about 4.5 thousand feet, but had to turn around because there was a mud slide and the road was closed. all the beauty of course disapated when we got into a funky little screaming match and i demanded he pull over the car because i thought he was going to kill us.... i got out started walking. he started crying, we got back in, came home did my taxes ate, and then fought some more.....

arugggggggggg....

okay, so we're going to fight. fight better.

i'm off to find out where the hell my delinquent student loans are, so i can fix them.

"hmmm" i think, as i feast upon oodles of noodles... shimp/lime flavor... delish!

went to phoenix for the first time, last night. seth got a brand new car. a dodge neon 04. it's actually really cute. good for him, so anyway, reaping the bennys i hopped in with him and we took off for the bird risen from the flames... phoenix was HUGE!!!!! very exciting.

couldn't believe it was still arizona.

i am planning more for the mexico trip. i think that will be my last great travel. i think i'll spend 2 or 3 weeks going throughout the country. more on it as i plan more. must learn spanish.

arugg.