DAY 125: MEN AND MIRRORS

michael jackson. should've had the coolest life ever but i guess it just doesn't seem like he was very happy at all. who knows the reality of his life. his accsations. it seems most of the world wanted to believe he was a dirty perve. he was weird enough i suppose. maybe that is where all this hatred stemmed from. he looked funny. clearly there was some self mutilation. but was it intentional or did something mess up and he just didn't speak of it?

did we/do we really know much about this guy at all? he made some awesome music. he also appeared to WANT to help. that's all i know.

that comeback i always wondered if he would have. clearly the talent was there... will not be happening now. i imagine unreleased material of his will continue to be released throughout my lifetime.

the world for sure has lost something that was a gift to us. a gift that we didn't treat very nicely at all.

and for all the accusations thrown at him to defend OUR disturbing behavior... i say to us all... PROOVE IT. "take a look at yourself and make a change." mj

DAY 121: UNWRITTEN

i kinda wanted to start blogging a bit more regularly again. just the random mundane things in life. i spent a bit of time tonight reading through an old journal and it's interesting and fun to look and see how stupid or how smart i was trying to be within my life...

quick run down on today: got cut early, hung out with shelly. finally put the living room back together and wrote another half finished song "return to vices."

arugg... one finished song this year would... ok... "trains" was finished. so, how about one more?? LOL ok... so that's all i've got for 2day. just took my sleeping pill. here's hoping dreamland is soon to come!

DAY 120: FORWARD

been seriously obsessed with the impossible forward motion of time. aging to be more exact. i am not sure what to think rather than perhaps maybe we ALL put way to much emphasis on our 20's. ten years is almost not enough time to fuck up decently, let alone fuck up and then rebuild into a better you....

perhaps it really all is an illusion. simply just ignore and push forward? not a bad idea maybe.

summer is officially here and if i have my way it is: back to the lake this weekend.

guess that's all for now. follow my twitter for more frequent and ridiculously boring updates =)

DAY 100: CELEBRATE.

today is my 100th day of being a non-smoker. i am ISO of a drinking buddy and tonight after work i shall go out and have a damn drink.

hell to the ye-ah!