REDEFINING TRADITIONS...

in the full blown hours of my latley ever present insomnia, i typed in the words "christmas alone" into the google search bar.

secretly longing for family that lives way too far away and job requirements and spice it up with the fact that i live alone and that all of my friends basically hate one another.... the season looks rather bleak.

i'm sponsoring a little girl who's a bit over a year old named victoria. baby victoria is from an abusive household and now living in a shelter. i'm going to get her some gifts and send some cards to my nieces. perhaps even my nephew.

but that doesn't stop me from fearing that as these years pass by... will eventually there just be no more christmas left in me at all?

will it just be another day?

one which you live through quickly?

am i a freak? is there anyone else out there like me?

google says yes. google says over 20 percent of households are single persons. google says that most of us only have 2 close confidants... down from 3 in 1985. after these past few years, its easy to understand why...

google says that there's a whole helluva lot of us that are living miles and miles away from our confidants and families.

google was right on target with me as they suggested decorating my house and getting a tree... celebrating anyway. coming up with some traditions of my own (the eggnogg drunk sounds quite fab to me... )

figuring other traditions out also. and so now there IS something to look forward to. i shall pioneer through this holiday season which is celebrated around a day that the world was given hope (christians anyhow...)

i like hope. i can celebrate that.

so merry christmas and happy holidays to all those people out there that noone else is saying it to you.

we can redefine these things. we can still celebrate hope.

i get my hope tree this weekend. settled.