NEW TIFFANY: JUST ANOTHER DAY!

YAY!!! ANOTHER NEW CLUB BANGIN TIFF SONG!!! "JUST ANOTHER DAY." CHRISTMAS IN JULY FOR SURE!!! THE ARTWORK FOR THE SINGLE LOOKS LIKE A THROW-BACK TO THE "NEW INSIDE" DAYS, AND THAT'S PRETTY ROCKIN TOO!

8 Days

i have 8 days to get everything done so that i can hop on a plane and fly the hell across the country.... um... wow!

TAKE-OUT MORNING

coffee in a take-out cup in front of me and 20 minutes before the frantic rush to get ready for work.... again, GROSS!!!!!!!

life - latley - seems to be just this mad rush of finger cramping from typing, cat hair, and a lot of tobacco and caffenee.

wasn't this supposed to be summer vacation? no school - just enjoy thy self? Ha!

unless i'm simply not putting forth the effort to enjoy myself? perhaps i could pick up a phone and just call out on the bitches today?

.......but no, not me.

there was a time though. wish i had half the balls i had no idea i had then now.

asnyway - been watching season 2 of "dexter" on line. for such a freaky concept, it's an awesome show.

anyway... i've made an august goal. besides flying the fuck across the country - i'm also finally picking my major. EEEK!

"love is all over the place." -ad

VACATION YAY!

finally have some dates for my vacation! yeah! a couple weeks in august. i'm so seriously over-due for a trip home... over-due for getting on airplanes... over-due for seeing people who i know without a doubt love me. just so over-due...!

in the mean time, i'm really digging on miley cyrus' "breakout" album. for sure media manipulation can not always be soo bad. she's a great time!

other than that... reading leif enger. working like a crazy man and trying to kick my sinus flu. finally caved and bought claritan 12 hour last night. it was kinda hard core. they took my id and everything and even squinted at me a little... so i took my first pill last night around 9pm and couldn't sleep at all....

so today, i feel fabulous, except i'm for sure wiped out.

ugh.

"...creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall..."

NEW ANI: THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH YOUR FACE

just because this woman is so always right on and knows exactly where it's at.... here's the lyrics to ani difranco's new song. "present/infant" i think is what it's being nicked.

lately i've been glaring into mirrors
picking myself apart
you'd think at my age i'd of thought
of something better to do
than making insecurity into a full-time job
making insecurity into an art
and i fear my life will be over
and i will have never lived unfettered
always glaring into mirrors
mad i don't look better

but now here is this tiny baby
and they say she looks just like me
and she is smiling at me
with that present infant glee
and yes i will defend
to the ends of the earth
her perfect right to be
right to be here.

so i'm beginning to see some problems
with the ongoing work of my mind
and i've got myself a new mantra
it says: "don't forget to have a good time"
don't let the sellers of stuff power enough
to rob you of your grace
love is all over the place!

there's nothing wrong with your face
love is all over the place
there's nothing wrong with your face!

A MOMENT TO REST.

i love moments when after all that has happened in our lives... in these tiny moments... everything's alright. smiles come easy, and easy for now, does it...

0.068

a few weeks ago the most frightening thing, ever in my life happened to me.

it was a saturday night and i'd picked up an extra shift at the diner to up the money intake for the week. i worked pretty late and by the time i got back into tucson, there was only about an hour of bar time left....

i went directly to the bar, rolled my pants up as if they were shorts and threw on a t-shirt i had in the back seat of my car.

i had 2 rum and diets as my lo-carb life will allow and then it was time to go home.

there was an after-hours that night but i decided not to go coz i was a bit tired.

all of a sudden, flashing blue lights and i pull my car over.....

i had to walk a line of tape and i had to do the karate kid pose with one leg up in the air for what seemed like forever (i cannot do this fully sober mind you... and infact, nor can anyone else...)

then i had the option of getting a lawyer or breathing into a large computer in the back of this DUI officers police car....

as he's writing up the paperwork for me to go spend the night in jail. he says i can decline the breath-alizer and it's an automatic license suspension and a night in jail and then the whole thing goes to trial... (how stupid.)

i'd only had 2 drinks and had not even finished the 2nd one. i was fine. i told him this and said i was ready as ever to take the test...

i blew into it and came out under the legal-limit of 0.08.

he then scrapped the jail ticket and we were done. i still had a court date but i was not going to jail. the officer said it was the law that he had to set a court date but that it would probably be tossed out.

it was mandatory that i go be fingerprinted and i was horrified and read on the internet later that between .04 and .08 could send you to jail in arizona.

did i need a lawyer.

i finally went in to get fingerprinted thursday before last. one week before my trial.

i was shaking so uncontrollably that the officer who was finger printing me had to stop me and ask me what was wrong...

i broke down and told her everything.

stopping short of giving me a hug, she told me not to worry about this. she had worked at the city-court and i would be fine. i had about a 1% chance of going to jail

1% chance of going to jail! PANIC!!!!!!!! i start frantically shaking again and she whispers into my ear... "speaking as someone who's not a police officer... baby, you are NOT going to jail."

this calmed me down enough to get my finger prints done....

fast forward a week to the court date. i find out before i even enter the room that the charge has been dismissed. this made me convulse and dance in an elevator and even throw-up a little.

i called everyone who's responses were basically all the same "i told you you had nothing to worry about..."

inside the court room which was only an arraignment and a time to either admit to guilt or to not, i was surrounded by a rather large group of people who actually were getting DUI's.

these people were getting 10 days in jail for a first offense with all but 1 of those days cut if they went to drug and alchohol counciling. a $1,400 fine (yikes) and they had to go to a MADD (Mothers against drunk driving) meeting. this last requirement seemed to be the worst in my opinion.

so when they called out my name and announced that my DUI was dismissed and i just had to wait for the judge to say it to me... the room kinda ruffled feathers and i heard a lot of "what the hell..." and "that's bullshit..." comming from behind me. i gulped.

one guy even came up to me and was like "bro... (bro?) why come you got dismissed yo!" and other people were listening too...

i was like "i blew a .068. i didn't break the law." and he was like "oh right on yo... dude, i blew a 2.8!!! " a 2.8!!!! this dude was chuckling about being completly fucking waisted behind the wheel. at this point he was what the court was calling a "SUPER SEVERE DUI" .... sounded like an action movie. what a lame ass name for this.

anyway.... i'm not going to jail. i'm not having to sell my car to pay fines... so i am still coming home for vacation. it's just been pushed back for a bit. the dates look like begining of august or mid-august at this point.

i will let everyone know what's going on. as for now, it's just back to my regular life. and just a reminder out there to everyone... BE CAREFUL!