i'm back in portland now. the first snow of the year this morning when i woke up was covering the whole earth it seemed... but it wasn't. seth said it was much warmer in tucson, and certaintly no snow... so it couldn't have been the whole world which was covered.

mike sent me a weird link, that was questionable about seth. but there's so many questions out there, aren't there. how many will we ever get answers for? why, then try to want to know all things?

i long for openness.. someone to want to speak and share with me.

"where do i go to feel good? why do i still look outside me? clearly, i've seen it wont work."