CITIZEN OF CALIFORNIA!

well, i finally went to the dmv and passed my written test.   my license is on the way and i'm a donor and i am registered to vote!   baby steps that are not baby steps at all.   this is huge.

i got welcomed 2 california two times while i was @ the dmv.    they were also really nice and dare i say, the whole process was kinda speedy!  

so, yay for me!

SCHOOL AND SPRING TIME

got a 93 on my test last night. doing straight up codes now. only got 2 wrong out of 30 or so, so i'm pretty happy with it. it shows that i am developing an understanding of what i am going to be employed to do. makes me happy.

ion... just trying to keep the balances up. work and school and cool people in this world. screw the people who aren't cool...

MIDTOWN SACRAMENTO

celebrated passing my intro to icd-9 test with 100% by walking around midtown on a saturday night. wanted to discover what i was hearing called the lavender district. sacramento's own mini-castro.

i didn't expect much but at the corner of k & 20th was a whole lot going on. i didn't dare go in2 any bars by myself but with my ipod playing the new MDNA album, i walked around and just watched everyone.

i get glimpses at times like these that i live in a very cool city with different and distinct districts. clearly the city is integrated but these "Hubs of energy" hot spot areas are pretty cool.

i want to live in midtown.

THE STARS DON'T EVEN MATTER

feeling of impending doom for like 3 days... i dunno what it's about. all the stuff i have to do this year? fly back home, clear out the house, and bury my mother being one of the top things on my mind that i don't want to do.

i only allow myself to think about all of that a little bit at a time. it's too much. i will stop for a second and say to mom... it's so much less fun and important without you. i miss you!

i got the promotion at work (that i didn't want). so, i guess i'm ok. about it 4 now

"if you're not really here then the stars don't even matter." - s. sparrow

FEBRUARY

i think i had gone like 20 days before i started smoking again. vince and i broke up right after that last post. we're still living together, but i've taken the office and made it into my bedroom. i have a pretty clear future plan that i'm working towards. it's going to take a lot of hard work but when has it not, honestly.

i had a birthday, but who cares. i sure don't. haha. i put myself on the capitol corridor (amtrack) and spent the day in san francisco.

i got a promotion at work, i start tonight with that. i really just wanted to be a waiter, but i guess we go where life leads us, right? (to some extent). then again, perhaps we are our own divine interventions, when we actually finally intervene.

alijah has been my rock throughout all i'm dealing with. mom's passing is affecting me on levels i can't even explain. i am sad, but not actively (usually). a lot more things are petty and unimportant then i ever realized.

chances are important to take, but smart, well-thought out ones. after all it could all be gone tomorrow

'in the blink of an eye everything could change.' - madonna

Day 6

i feel like shit. i quit smoking 6 days ago. i guess it's the toxins going by-by but it ain't fun.. kill me... hahaha

ion - nope, that's about it right now.. ugh.

ALIJAH IS ONE YEAR OLD!!!!!

my little baby puppy is a whole year old today!!! giving him lots of treats and i will take him for a long walk when i have a day off. i volunteered to come in and work the banquet room tonight for about 4 hours not realizing it was his birthday, but i'll pick him up a T - R - E - A -T on the way home.

happy birthday baby!